Yesterday has got to be the lowest of the lowest I've ever been. I haven't cried that much in these last two and a half years combined, and I scared myself when I looked at my reflection in the mirror (and just looking in the mirror was a hard task itself because my eyes were swollen to the point I could barely open them) -- but it felt good to just let everything out and cry till I was content.

Rejection is definitely something that does not get easier to deal with with experience.

It is winter, yet the temperature is still lingering around the mid-60's and 70's. This is not my idea of "winter" -- this is "autumn".

I bought myself an apple green umbrella yesterday. It made me happy, even if it was just for an instant.

That instant ended the minute I stepped into my house. My parents demanded to see my grades from the last mock exam, and um, let's just say they were... bleh. I botched them badly, and my ranking dropped from 4th to 62rd.

Hence... I was locked in my room.

Some people, then, sent me some untimely text messages that just completely ruined my day, and yus.

Jebus, this makes no sense.

Let's just say, what I'm feeling is equivalent to the windy chaos this freakish winter typhoon has brought upon Taiwan.

Anyone care to bid for Jay's pink Benz? Haha.

You get the car (his car) AND a pair of Nike's. Kind of odd, but hey, if you really like Jay, it's a friggin good deal.

Bam.